Friday, February 11, 2011

R3P2D26

Okay, just a quick entry today.  I am up 0.4, but that is not a surprise considering my loss of the other day and it is close to the end of my round.  I also made some bad choices for P2 (they were good P3 choices, but I am not in P3 yet!).

Going to try to stick with my modified version of P2 for the last few days.  It works if I do that. 

Starting to look forward to P3 and all the things I can add back in.

Thinking of you all and hope you have a great weekend,

Enjoy the day!
Amy

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

R3P2D24

Holy Releases Batman!  I lost 2.0 lbs when I stepped on the scale today.  I mean, wow!  Considering that I altered the protocol I am feeling pretty lucky.  Of course I am anticipating the weight bouncing back (cause that is how this round goes), but will enjoy the loss for now.

Enjoy the day,
Amy

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

R3P2D23

Yay!  Lost 1.0 lbs again.  Lost this very pound a few times this round, LOL.

So, I am changing things up a little for my last week of shots.  I am going rogue on Dr.  Simeon's protocol so please don't take this as approved on the plan.  I know the plan, I have followed the plan, but it is not going to be what I do for this last week.

This restructuring is mostly because I ran out of my doctor recommended meal replacement shake.  That, and the fact that I have zero will-power this round.  I could have just added back in the fruit and the melbas (well, rice crackers for me) that my doc took out and replaced with the shake.  But, to be honest, I don't think I can control myself with the crackers.  So, I decided to add in a tiny bit of protein (about a 50 g serving instead of a full one) and a fruit (bringing me to the approved 2) and another veggie.  What that translates to is I had an egg and a green smoothie (spinach and strawberries) this morning.  The rest of the day will basically be on protocol.

However, I love Darby's suggestion in her comments on yesterday's post.  Since I am struggling so mightily with little cheats, I am going to try to allow a reasonable cheat once a day.  For me it will probably be a small handful of nuts or a scoop of peanut butter.  I will do this either in the afternoon or in the evening which are my typical weakest times.  I will try to resist doing it at all.  I am hoping that knowing I CAN do this will translate into not doing it.  Sometimes that is just the way I roll.

Oh, and for all the tea drinkers out there I have to tell you about a new tea that was introduced to me by a friend.  It is by Bigelow and is called White Chocolate Kisses.  It is soooo delicious!  I put my 2 tablespoons of milk in there, along with a couple drops of stevia and it is heaven.  I don't know why they call it white chocolate when it has actual cocoa powder.  Because cocoa contains fat (they do use lowfat) and there is rice concentrate in there, you don't want to drink this if you are strictly following protocol. 

Okay, back to work!
Enjoy the day,
Amy

Monday, February 7, 2011

R3P2D22

Geez.  I am up, I am down, I am up, I am down, I am UP.  Back up about 1.8 lbs.  I deserve it though.  Lots of little cheats over the weekend.  It all started with the fundraiser.  I did bring my apple, but they had beautiful fresh fruit.  Had that instead, probably more than a serving.  And instead of a veggie tray, they had a pickle, olive and cheese tray.  That was disaster for me.  There was no other food I could have so I had pickles, olives and a little cheese.   I didn't drink.  Yay me.

Then the rest of the weekend was just full of little cheats.  No epic fails, just little cheats, that added to gains. 

I am so not doing well on this round.  I thought I could ride out the stress with my daughter's stuff, but I think it is undermining my will-power.  I am normally rock solid and don't cheat a bit (other than the minor changes my doc has made to the program and occasional extra protein on work out days).  This time I am having a little of this and a little of that all of the time. 

I contemplated just ending this round and going to P3.  I only have a week's worth of shots left so I thought I would see how the first few days of this week go and then decide.  Either way I am happy I lost all of my holiday weight, but sad I won't reach anywhere close to my goal.  Sigh.

Enjoy the day,
Amy

Friday, February 4, 2011

R3P2D19

Yippee!  I lost another 1 lb.  I am so happy that my french-fry accident didn't lead to more gains.  I am back to my pre-weekend-of-fun weight again.  Kind of questioning whether wasting an entire week of shots was worth it, but you can't really go back, right?

Things are going smoothly so far today.  I have a lunch date with a friend, but we both plan to head straight for the salad bar.  Lettuce and chicken for me.  I can do that. 

It's tonight that will be a challenge.  Hubby and I are going to a fundraiser for CASA (one of my very favorite charitable organizations and one I plan to work with once my kiddos are more independent).  Problem 1 is that I don't know when I will have time to eat an P2 friendly meal.  We take the kids to the sitter at 5:45.  I will barely have time to get ready, let alone eat.  Problem 2 is there will be lots of hors d'oeuvres and alcohol.  Most the the food I can resist due to my 'Celiac related gluten issues, but without time to eat before the event...I may have a trickier time resisting the non-gluten, non-P2 stuff.  I will try my best to not have alcohol.  Problem 3, can't wait to eat until we leave 'cause we will likely be there until 11 at night. 

Okay, I can do this.  I will find a way.  I don't want to waster anymore time on this round.  Onederland is not going to happen for me if I don't turn this around right now.  Grrr.

Have a great weekend,
Amy

Thursday, February 3, 2011

R3P2D18

Well, darn it.  I am up 0.6 lbs.  To be honest I was expecting more.  I made some bad choices yesterday and am wondering if I will pay with more gains tomorrow.

So, yesterday I started out hungry and never really wasn't hungry.  That is a bad sign.  Wednesdays are really busy for our family.  After work I pick up my daughter and take her straight to her dance class.  After that we have an hour to spend as a family before I go to my tap class.  We choose to eat out at some of the restaurants that are near the dance studio.  While on HCG protocol our choices are more limited than usual.  We typically eat at a local burger place (serves grass-fed beef, etc) or a local build-your-own-Mexican place.  I know what I can get and stay on program and gluten-free.

So, I had my hamburger patty in a lettuce wrap and some slices of tomato (yes, I am a no-good veggie mixer when I am on P2.  It has NEVER made a difference in my losses and it makes me happy, just sayin').  My kids had their meals which had fries and this amazing sauce that this place makes.  Normally I can resist, no problem.  Apparently not last night.  I thought I would just have a couple and stop.  I justified it by saying I would burn the extra calories in tap class.  All of that probably would have been fine.  A no-no, but probably wouldn't have done much.  But I didn't stop there.  My daughter is not a fry girl so there were lots of neglected spud sticks in her basket.  I guess I don't need to tell you where this went.  Sheesh. At least I didn't eat them all.  I left a few.  ;)

Okay, so far today I am doing what I am supposed to do.  Hoping I haven't set myself back too much.

Enjoy the day,
Amy

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

R3P2D17

Nice!  Lost the last of the over indulgent weekend gain.  2.4 lbs today!

I am hungry today.  I am going to try to push through with lots of yummy tea.  I survive on tea when I am on HCG.  I drink it when I am not following protocol 'cause I do love tea, but when I am on P2 I am never without tea.  I have traditional teas like Earl Grey, Assam, English/Irish/Scottish Breakfast, etc.  I have fun flavored black and green teas like blueberry, black raspberry, strawberry, Earl Grey Cream, vanilla caramel truffle (OMG!).  And in the evenings I consume large amounts of red tea (rooibos).  I am currently enjoying coconut chai and Good Hope vanilla red teas.

I do whatever it takes not to eat off protocol.  Most of the time it works.  ;)

Enjoy the day,
Amy

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

R3P2D16

Lost 3.6 lbs when I got on the scale today!  Wahoo!  Knew that water weight would go quickly.  Now I just need to get a little bit more off and I am back to my pre-weekend weight. 

Met with a friend of mine today who really helped with this whole Asperger's/Autism Spectrum stuff.  Her son has Asperger's.  We had a long talk about life with our amazing kiddos and she was able to provide me with a unique perspective.  I have been talking about this a lot with my other friends and speaking to lots of experts and reading far too many websites/blogs about Autism.  She was able to really relate to the feelings I am having and we even talked about some coping mechanisms that I hadn't heard before. 

One of the biggest "aha" moments was when I was telling her that my daughter really has no friends, she isn't well-liked by her peers and she never gets invited to play dates or birthday parties.  My friend looked at me and asked, "does it bother her?"  Well, no, it doesn't.  My sweet girl is rather oblivious to these facts.   She is confident and happy with herself.  I should revel in that fact and not try to beat my head against a wall trying to force friendships that aren't there.  If my girl does start to be bothered by lack of friends, I can take on that challenge at that time.  Wow.   That was a big moment for me. 

Okay, sorry.  I don't intend to turn my HCG blog into an Autism blog.  I just wanted to let you all know how things are progressing for me in that area.  It is a big part of my life right now and affects all aspects of my life, including my weight loss plans.  So I appreciate you letting me share.

Hugs,
Amy